Days go by so very quickly when I have so very much to do.
Straight-up and bedraggled, my hair is starting to look like the hair of a crazy cat woman.
Very telling, that.
Must find time for flat iron before someone sees me. A little mascara wouldn't hurt either.
I worry about the wrinkles in their clothes and the scuff marks on their shoes, what they ate for dinner…
Fiber counts and sugar highs
Too much television. Too little math.
Homework took three hours last night, and there are dishes in the sink, and I still need to work.
Bills. Bills. Bills.
I worry about the rent, about the electricity, about the various ends and outs of it being just me.
The ends and outs of choosing some sort of man-child who doesn't worry about those sorts of things, who thinks that responsibility is an island off the coast of Africa.
Who leaves things like worry and bills to me.
Who never takes me anywhere…
Especially not to Africa.
"I'll take myself," I say, "just as soon as these bills are paid."
Just as soon as the clothes are ironed.
Just as soon as dinner is made, and the dishes are done, and I feed the dog…
"The dog loves me more," I explain, "because I feed him first thing in the morning and don't force him to entertain an empty belly whilst waiting upon the whims of man-children."
I sympathize with his plight.
Very telling, that.
Deep breaths are hard to come by…
Especially when you forget to breathe.
Pocket Buddha says, "Peace."
And I do my damnedest to listen.
